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Behind the hazel eyes of a man who I don't know dances the reflections of the moon
caught in the street lights
and I can watch the confusion swim and the true self fight.
He's turning into the pious fish
the temporary cush and crush,
the winter rush,
the Coyote toy,
the misinterpreted joy,
and then the struggle of a story.
He shifts his form so he can pretend he's given up the grudge.
He picks up the shovel and works with vigor
but inside those starry eyes, I see water and sober liquor.
I see the grudges and the time he was promised he wouldn't have to wait,
the inner debate,
the inertia he uses to compensate.
I decode the hatred behind his smile.
I discover the existential crisis of needing to savor what he cannot enjoy.
I find the man admitting he's nothing but a toy
being thrown from where the frost trees never yield
to the fields
where what he is a disease
and there's nothing worth less
than exactly what he needs;
somebody to tell him the truth about time and how much he has
stuck in the forced cement commitment.
How long can he remain in a world where all his traits are sicknes
and the people around him shout it with god as their witness?
What an afraid slave.
He manipulates the voice inside his head
to become a machine for what needs to be misinterpreted:
fag means good man; kike means love;
lazy after 9 hours of shovel labor is a complement; slut never means slut;
no, you're not their bitch, pretending to be who they want you to be;
the concept of coming home is hope; the way the world turns;
me.
The program is working him and it's not him working the program.
The bullshit throws him off balance and he's scolded for the way he stands
the way he breaths
the way he sees
the methodology of his voice
the solum surrender of choice.
Judgement slams down on everything from the empty fullness of his eyes
and the filament that colors the blood in his pigment
and the pure fear that if he doesn't pass their impossible test
that everyone important to him will love him less.
The days would sludge on and the next day would never come.
He wishes he could just skip forward the months
to avoid the taunting cycle of the corrupt run sun.
Then I wake up.
I stare into the mirror to avoid what I cannot avoid:
when I stare into my eyes, I realize how pointless it is to defy;
I still see the same, terrified, abandoned, program boy.
caught in the street lights
and I can watch the confusion swim and the true self fight.
He's turning into the pious fish
the temporary cush and crush,
the winter rush,
the Coyote toy,
the misinterpreted joy,
and then the struggle of a story.
He shifts his form so he can pretend he's given up the grudge.
He picks up the shovel and works with vigor
but inside those starry eyes, I see water and sober liquor.
I see the grudges and the time he was promised he wouldn't have to wait,
the inner debate,
the inertia he uses to compensate.
I decode the hatred behind his smile.
I discover the existential crisis of needing to savor what he cannot enjoy.
I find the man admitting he's nothing but a toy
being thrown from where the frost trees never yield
to the fields
where what he is a disease
and there's nothing worth less
than exactly what he needs;
somebody to tell him the truth about time and how much he has
stuck in the forced cement commitment.
How long can he remain in a world where all his traits are sicknes
and the people around him shout it with god as their witness?
What an afraid slave.
He manipulates the voice inside his head
to become a machine for what needs to be misinterpreted:
fag means good man; kike means love;
lazy after 9 hours of shovel labor is a complement; slut never means slut;
no, you're not their bitch, pretending to be who they want you to be;
the concept of coming home is hope; the way the world turns;
me.
The program is working him and it's not him working the program.
The bullshit throws him off balance and he's scolded for the way he stands
the way he breaths
the way he sees
the methodology of his voice
the solum surrender of choice.
Judgement slams down on everything from the empty fullness of his eyes
and the filament that colors the blood in his pigment
and the pure fear that if he doesn't pass their impossible test
that everyone important to him will love him less.
The days would sludge on and the next day would never come.
He wishes he could just skip forward the months
to avoid the taunting cycle of the corrupt run sun.
Then I wake up.
I stare into the mirror to avoid what I cannot avoid:
when I stare into my eyes, I realize how pointless it is to defy;
I still see the same, terrified, abandoned, program boy.
A Bit of Love
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Literature
Her
She is a
beauty,
a head turner,
a hot mess,
but boy do I love her.
She never lets me
fall,
falter,
or lose my faith
because she believes in me.
I am in
lust,
in love,
and just damn lucky to have her
by my side.
She's my
best friend,
my biggest fan,
and my lover all
wrapped up in one special package.
Life is hard,
but she makes it bearable.
She lifts me up in the storm,
and never lets me give up,
even when I think the world
has had enough of me.
I can't stop
won't stop
loving her.
She is my hero,
and I am hers.
Literature
Memoria in aeterna
To say that Cassandra was an influence on my life, is like saying the ocean is big. Such simple words cannot convey the vastness, the complexities, and the intricacies of who she was to me.
She was so large a part of my life, that with the naivety of the young, I assumed she would forever be there. She was an unchanging force from my childhood, a rock through my youth, and a friend in my adulthood. It still seems hard to fathom that she is gone.
I want to tell you who she was to me:
She was my inspiration. I remember watching her draw, and swallowing up every pencil stroke. I'd ask questions, and she'd slowly go over lines, telling me the
Literature
I think of you..
I think of you when I'm walking
and what it's like to walk next to you.
I think of you when I put money in the til,
and with every song on the radio or
every customer that buys milk or V.
I think of you with every word I write.
I think of you every time I look at my phone,
or Christmas decorations
or the Kinder Surprises in the fridge.
I think of you every time someone asks about the number on my hand
or just when I see my hands,
remembering how yours feel in them.
I think of you when I write in permanent marker
and how they make you dizzy.
I think of you when I kneel down to rest my legs,
I think of all the scars on your knees
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This is a great poem. You convey the feeling of being unappreciated despite doing your best well. What I like the most would be your wordings; unique and clever. Well done!